I want to be Independent!

                

 Lately, my parents have been on my case about my future and what career I should be getting into, and let me tell you, it's like hell talk. Im sure many people have different thoughts of what they want as to what they're parents want, and so do I. It's weird. My dad really wants me to work under the government while my mother wants me to be practical and work in the medical field. While both seem pretty practical and secure that will have me live a comfortable and stable life, that's just not what I want. At all. In fact, it's the total opposite of what I want. Im not sure if it's a stage that most teens go through, or if this is really what I want. 
                 I remember in history class watching The Diary of Anne Frank and hearing Anne say or write something about how she doesn't want to live a simple life. She doesn't want to just be like her mother who had a simple life and family and I can relate to that totally. I don't want to be just any normal person, I don't want to live a simple or comfortable life. I wanna live a life or risks, a life of being on my own and being independent. Making my own new beginnings and taking risks, that's what I want in my life. Now, we come to the question of what DO I want to be when I grow up? Well, I do have dreams of living a totally different life than others, but I try to keep that to myself because it sounds pretty stupid, haha. But I know I wanna write, and I wanna travel. I just don't wanna live under any rules. I just wanna be by myself, free to do anything I want. It is hard to listen to what your parents want for you in the future and in your mind thinking the total opposite. It also sort of upsets me. Although I am the rebellious one, I do feel bad that in my mind I already know that I might let down my parents. But I'll show them that I will not let them down.
         
 Traveling has always been in my blood. My parents have always taken my siblings and I across the globe ever since I was young, but I want to travel by myself too. I want to move out of the States, and make it on my own. I want to challenge myself to new adventures and new openings. I also want to continue my writing. I wanna go across the globe and hear people's stories and use that to make new ones. I wanna live a life where I dont need anyone's nagging about how much of a smart ass I am or how annoying I am. I mean, life's about taking risks, so why would you try to play it safe? Also, the quote "If you choose a work you love, it'll never be working" always comes to my mind. I dont wanna stay in some boring ass chair and write up peoples problems or something. I wanna explore and smile. Although it sounds sort of...un-filial of me to want to pick up and leave, I can't help it. I grew out of this place. Im tired of this, I want to go out and explore. But I can't help also having a practical mind. I mean, how could writing support myself? It could if I play my right cards. It's a competitive world, but you know what? Im willing to go out there and take my chances. Im willing to do what I want. Im not gonna wait for fate or for destiny to come knocking at my door. Im gonna leave my door, and make destiny and fate happen. 

As I write this, Im listening to "I dont need a man" by Miss A, a kpop girl group. The translations are, "Im not gonna live under my parent's money." and "I don't need a man's money" or something to that effect. It's basically saying how the girls want to be independent and they don't need a man or they're parents money to live with. That's exactly what I want. To be an independent lady.

-Shay Lynn